I cant talk more about this ramadhan, from my last ramadhan this was not my best coz my amal jamai' was sooo low! Lowest ever (since i was knowing Islam) Why? because I really want to spent my time with my family, also want to write, want to watched, and want to play with my brother, helping the other brother, and laughing with my little sisters! It's holiday! Rare Holiday. For two Ramadhan before, I spent most ramadhan in Semarang, came to kajian and become a part of committee. And, honestly this year I also take the roll for Ramadhan'S Agenda in Semarang. But, my brother needs me, and I also need them. I need to refresh my mind, there was many thing happen for many days before and I need to think clearly and charge my hearth.
In fact, I feel satisfied to spent my time with my family, but in another fact of my feeling I know its not enough for us and most for me. I wasnt success enough, maybe I have a lot of fun, and learn manythings but.. how about them? Does my family learn many great things for me? Hmm.. Hard question.
Sometimes I helped my mother.. But, I know, Its far from enough, I still couldn't gave them the best memories, I guess, I often made my mom angrier -maybe- because I didnt mop the floor or woke up earlier, I didnt help my mom to prepared sahur. (Is this just my feeling or this is the truth?) I am just like a little girl who missing to play and relax. -.-"
It's make me hard to back to Semarang, i really want to spend quality time with them, coz i dont find my family there. I am empty in another side.
I am just afraid I have no time. but, the show must go on.
the begin must have end.
i just need to make my study faster, and finished it earlier.
or, i need to make my own family?
ah, the important thing is.. I really need to make up my self again + make up my time-management again!
aiih, why i am curcol here?
oh, yeah.. just to share maybe u have another experience,
to solve and inspiring me?
take it easy,
i am human.
~*syafiyah*~
[24.08.12]
2 days before back
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